dark & damaged heart

The word for the day is "Really?"

or maybe "Seriously?"

I've been having trouble with my pseudo ex-boyfriend's baby mama. Reader's Digest version ... started dating this guy in August 28 at my friend's wedding. He was kind and decent and single and available. He also had two kids, but I love kids so I figured ... let's do this thing.

Our first date felt like 'home.' Don't know how many of you have ever felt that way, but it was the most peaceful and comfortable feeling ... cut to:

A few months later this chick appears out of the blue ... October 30 for me, that's the date he took me to the SC Homecoming game ... and says she's pregnant with his kid. He tells me, he says he's not in love with her, he loves her as a friend ... but wants to stay with me. He's in love with me. Ok, so I figure this is the 21st century things are complicated. No big deal ... we're all adults (that was my first incorrect assumption), so we can work it out.

Cut to ... Christmas when he disappeared. Turns out the baby mama turned up on his doorstep with no place to go and being the nice guy that he is, he let her in. WRONG MOVE!!!

She's still there, she's had the baby, and is now acting like the lady of the manner. She's been blogging about me and tagging my BUSINESS and calling me names and threatening to kick my face in with her friends ... online! Idiot! That's a criminal threat. I have filed a police report and am following up ... I want charges to to pressed. I'm not taking this lying down.

I am not the dirty mistress she is making me out to be. (Did I mention she's a bit delusional???)

Anyway, I serve her with a cease and desist and tell her about the criminal report. And she still keeps writing!!!! Ghetto Lindey so wants to regulate ... but I am not that person. I am the nice girl (don't know when that happened, but it did) who goes through proper channels.

But today, she tweeted that I should leave HER alone! IS SHE KIDDING????

SHe attacks me, my character, my business and reputation (which I've spent thousands building) and when I ask her to stop, I should leave her alone. REALLY???? SERIOUSLY??? I am the bad guy. I think she may be crazy. SHe's admitted that in her blog, so this is common knowledge.

So what the heck do I do about this? Ignore her. I've been trying, but there's only so much I can take.

I am focused on positive things ... building a business that inspires others to do the same. Writing a song to honor my Dad, cooking food for a friend who's husband was just committed to a home for dementia .... this is life and death stuff ... not this other bullshit.

But still .... it gets to you! Or at least to me. How can I make her stop? I guess I can't. I can only control my reaction to her ...

Ok, so besides , really and seriously ... here's the thought for the day ...

"Never wrestle with a pig, because you both get dirty only the pig likes it!"

Here's to staying out of the pigpen and keeping my side of the street clean!

There once was a girl
who lived in a world
where men let her down
and allowed her to drown

I'll save you he said
As he took her to bed
If she'd waited for him
Her fate would be grim!

Empty words spoken
Promises broken
Lacking in spine
Nothing's gonna be fine!

Weak and sneaky as a weasel
Lies, lies, lies painted picture on easel
Believed him she did
When he gave her a few quid

much drama caused
with his pregnant pause
no matter whatever
we're in this together

then he went it alone
abandoned her home
moral to the story
no guts no glory

So she walked away clean
when she could have been mean
heart ripped apart
she used it for art!

Sewn back together
the storm did she weather
now she's just fine
her heart still does shine!